Stumbling in the Dark

So when I started this blog, I was convinced I had something to share. Certainly, I hoped that once underway, it would take on a life of its own and ideas would flow like water, words would form from a kernel of an idea like popcorn. Alas, it has not been so.

Life too, has been challenging. Do you want to know about what it’s like to adjust to a work environment that has been less than welcoming?

Life too, has been challenging. Do you want to know about what it’s like to adjust to a work environment that has been less than welcoming? It’s so easy to hear about people who are able to put their critics behind them and barge ahead with their project, but living it every day is far from easy.

And then there’s my old nemesis, perfection. I came from a family that said I don’t have to be perfect but criticized the life out of everything. Still today while hearing someone make some sort of compliment, I wait for the inevitable “but…” that takes away everything that I had managed to accomplish.

Actually, ‘waiting’ is not the right word- anxiously anticipate is better. I anxiously anticipate the “but…”, the key word telling me that I am not good enough, I am not perfect.

I carry this every day, still. I find myself paralyzed because I am not perfect. And so, I have not written into this blog. For a long time.

I sincerely thank you for reading through my first few entries, and making it this far.

If you have questions, if you are curious, if you want to know more, drop me a line.

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